A gloomy day

I've come to a place. I'm frustrated with myself and no matter how hard I try to get away, I'm always still there.

I'm working through some tough things now that I don't want to blog about. Mostly because keeping them in the "closet", if you will, means that no one knows and I can't be put in a vulnerable position. I do need to work through them, however. But bringing them out will hurt many people that I love very much and I'm trying to choose a very safe place to confide. This scares me and makes me feel very ill.

So.

That's all for today.

3 comments:

Jay said...

scipp... I miss you. so here's the deal: I've been super "down" lately. I realize it's because I lack the Lord's touch in my life, and then I read Scottie's blog, and then I read your comment, and then I realize I am not running to the LORD's touch as I should... and then I see your gloomy day post, and I realize I'm not the only one who's "down" today. My prayers as I lay down tonight are for you and for Scottie.

scottieb said...

whoa, heather, sounds like some pretty tough stuff. i feel for you and will be praying for a soft heart, pure intentions, an open door and a time and place for things to surface or come out. i also pray for honesty, genuineness, and compassion for those listening to your words heather.

lord, would you listen to heather's troubles! be there to comfort her and carry her through this difficult time. may relationships be strengthened through this and also, may her faith in you and love for you only grow. amen.

Scott Martin said...

Captain Skippppppp....

Keep going...I have found in my own life and in so many others that rarely is there a "quick fix". However, for some reason, society and life try to convince that the moment you take a step back, there is no forgiveness, no excuse, no help. When you are convinced of this, it is so hard to hear J.C. saying, "Come". God wants to refine us from all the things, hidden and shown, to make us more like His Son, J.C.! Sometimes the spirit has to use some pretty hot fire to refine us, sometimes we have to be held in the fire to whipe out the imperfections.

Basically: Be encouraged and keep going!